Update...I don't know what's happened the last few days but my Daddy's dementia seems suddenly worse. It's like he's had an awakening in a different world and it hit him that something is very wrong. I admire my Momma so but I know both of their hearts are breaking and I can do nothing to stop or change this process.
Our home is in such flux and crazy messy - still not knowing what's happening with our contractors and our home is so stressful.
Nathan has the crud right now....blech.
Lastly, (and hopefully?), it seems I may be working full time very soon. Changes galore!
I am diligently making efforts to find a balance between staying connected and engaged....so as not to sit on the sidelines as a spectator. I feel like I'm riding a teeter totter with no one on the other side and although I know all we have is this moment, I am so afraid. I don't feel lonely but I do feel alone.
I guess the result of is that I snuggle into God's lap a little deeper without retreating from life. I snuggle our beautiful babies, run my hands deep into our fur babies fur, don't miss an opportunity to say I love you, breathe in the crispy air and move forward while staying here. I know how very blessed I am, but boy does my heart ache.